i dont know what you're talking about.

and at this point in my day, i really don't care either.

working 8 hours and then being stuck in a room with unrealistic looking human beings to make me feel infinitely worse about myself for an extra 5 is not my idea of a good time.

one of them asked me about my black flag tattoo....

"tell me about your tattoo!"
"it's a black flag tattoo....they're a punk band from the early 80's"
"oh cooooooooooooooooooool...were you in the band?"
".......................no."


yeah ok, so i've been a little cranky lately.
i know.
i'm sorry.

for the record... i just have a lot on my mind. i have a lot on my plate at work. i'm getting weird illnesses that really only occur in children under 10. and i'm having trouble times 100 seeing myself that way i did a year ago.

i'm just frustrated. at life. in general.







those are the only three things i seriously want in my life and i can't have any of them. atleast not immediately.

i'm hungry. it's 20 to 12:00.
maybe i should eat for the first time today.

xo

so what the fuck ever

so i told myself i would make useful posts that people care about. and maybe, someday, i will.

maybe.

but for the time being i'm going to write whatever i want. because thats what i do and thats what im going to continue doing. especially today.

so my search for a new job has slowed somewhat significantly once i realized that no one has called me for a job interview. this is the first time in my entire life i have ever had any problem getting atleast an interview. it's stressful.

and to make matters worse my mind fuck of a boss is being sweet as pie. for almost an entire week so far! it makes me happy to go to work but i feel like im constantly waiting for the other shoe to drop...like there's a catch to everything or that darkness is looming over everything that comes out of my mouth that she may not agree with.

i've been finding myself going through these mini fits of rage lately. like with no cause or anything i just suddenly hate everything for a span of about 2 hours and am the most foul human being ever.

no pleasant. not sure if it's stress or (other) but i wish i knew because believe it or not i don't like being foul.

tonight i have to figure out how i am going to weasel my way to getting osap again so i can go back to school. my mom mentioned something about "throwing myself at the mercy of the government"...but im not sure i like that idea.

speaking of my mom. i love her.

xo

glad to see my shirt still fits you

As much as i complain about how much my job ultimately blows, due solely to the fact that my boss is a crazy raging fucking nutcase of a woman.... sometimes i get to do cool shit.

Even if i'm not asked but told, and have to mingle with corporate douchebags in a room full of mid twenties industry snobs drinking mojitos and shitting foie gras.
bottom line, is that i have a real job. whether i hate it most days or not.

Went to an industry night tonight dressed like a slob. oops. i may or may not have woken up at 8 am forgetting that i had to attend this thing and remembering that i had to be at work in 20.

but, just incase all of you think i'm full of shit and or think i don't actually do anything but spend most of my days on facebook....
this is one of the venues we're part of in the distillery district.

it's called the fermenting cellar:

Anyway, it's gorgeous. super raw and full of character/potential... but its just such a joke that they would have this industry night now in the middle of everyones massive cut backs on spendature seeing as it's one of the most expensive venues in the city. and so big that your rentals would probably be 10 grand alone to make it look as impressive as it did tonight.

i dont really know why anyone would care about this other than me. Believe it or not i actually like getting my own clients, and having lunch dates or doing sales meetings. it makes me feel accomplished and established and like i'm contributing to more than just cutting back the bookkeepers work load. and i'm actually really good at it i just have no motivation to bring someone business who has no respect for me.

anyway, I'm going back to school soon! everyone be proud of me.
xo

all i do is party.. ha ha ha haaaaaaaaaa

+ my boss just got me a birthday present!

- my birthday is in june.

you win some you lose some.

xo

stars.

most of the time i believe astrology is bullshit. but sometimes it throws generic shit like this at me and it just so happens to pertain to my life so vividly that it's hard to ignore.

Try not to get weighed down by your own emotions today, dear Gemini, but make sure you give them the opportunity to have their time in the spotlight. You may find that there is a strong force working to cover up the truth of what you really feel. Make sure you express yourself openly and honestly. At the same time, you don't want to be so over-dramatic that you blow things out of proportion and add more melodrama to the situation.

I ran into my old best friend yesterday with his current girlfriend who is basically the reason we aren't friends anymore. that was awkward. the conversation ended with him telling me to "get out". (of grimsby). and i think it was meant to be funny but at the same time maybe not.

I lost a really huge job at work today. one i've been working on for like... 3 months. and the woman wasn't overly nice about it considering the time i put into revising her stupid proposal 800 times with the we have no money, we have money, we have no money again bullshit, and the fact that i went on a site visit last monday. not impressed.

all i wanna do i LVL.
and maybe hibernate for like 2 months.
i am like the human definition for caring too much...too fast...too often.
whatever.
you get the idea.

xo

get learned!

so it's come to my attention recently that the general population of toronto isn't overly interesting to talk to.
So instead... i have spent my time this morning ignoring the phone, and avoiding the baptismal luncheon proposal of death to lurk out material objects that i want to own, to make this yearning for a deeper connection subside... even if only momentarily.

(this may seem like i'm very "woe is me" and unhappy....but i'm actually so stoked on life, you couldn't possibly fathom)

While hanging out at warped tour this year i was lurking the vans tent and came across a pair of adorable watermelon chukkas. I held off on buying them at the time hoping that i would be able to find them somewhere when i returned home, but i couldn't even lurk a PICTURE of them on the intronetz.

but ALAS! my months of regret and sadness are over.

You're allll going to think they're hideous. and i'm totally ok with that. SPRING 2009 WATERMELON CUTIE SHOES HERE I COME.

Now on the topic of shoes... i normally don't wear heels. and not just because i can't walk in them or they are never comfortable no matter what people tell me or what i put in them... but i recently bought a pair of Chinese Laundry winter boots with a little heel on them. WHO CARES. the point is... i've been lurking these weird red wedges for a long time now... not really sure if i could handle wearing them or pull them off...but upon more consideration i think i may invest.

you're probably all going to think those are ugly too but once again, i pay no mind!
I would also like this:

For all those times i wish i were badass enough to pummel a grizzly bear! (or grow a beard)... a constant reminder on the front of my laptop! UN.

and just because everyone loves puppies....

Frankendog, Hot Dog, and Froggy Dog.
Boston terriers, but of course.

xo

Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde

It's always super boggled my mind how someone can be two different people.
It occured to me today that my boss is infact a modern day case of Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde, as she bought all of us extravagant christmas presents and referred to me as sweetie all day.
A Pedicure at the Prince Edward Spa (BALLIN'), a bottle of wine, a crab tree and evelyn travel package, and a bottle of champagne, as well as an early paycheque later made me realize this woman has me totally mind fucked and i have no idea if she hates me or loves me.

My mom informed me that i might be going to L.A. in january for free with my grandma. to see rich "aunty" Gillian Barberie and her model hubby and baby daughter ruby.
L.A.
Free
Rich "Aunty"
a-m-a-z-i-n-g.

I also got referred to as an ingrid bergman audrey hepburn hybrid by a certain adorbs dufferin station MC. i don't really see it but i'll definitely take it. it's definitely better that a "young geena davis", which i've been referred to as on more than one account. gross.

things are definitely looking up.
i was so caught up on old memories i forgot that half the fun of life is making new ones, with people who matter now, as opposed to those who mattered then.

whats up for new years?
xo

Big ups post!

so... after spending for too much time alone in the office today i've decided to make a post to all the things i love, or hate that consequently result in something i love.

big ups to the Via rail and the TTC for making my boss just late enough this morning that i wasn't caught being late.
big ups to my boss for being the craziest woman i have ever met so that any boss i have in the future will be a walk in the park in comparison.
big ups to red hair dye for making me feel good about hacking all of my retarded hair off again.
big ups to matt ellis for always being able to decipher what the HELL i'm talking about.
big ups to jen gillen for being the best robot legged friend anyone could ever ask for.
big ups to katie gale for not throwing away her old winter jacket and helping me fashion it into a new one.
big ups to arthurs fresh company for making those amazing mango plus smoothies that i super enjoy.
big ups to feta cheese for being a perfect addition to any meal i happen to scroung together from the nothingness within my fridge.
big ups to that guy who threw his shoes at george bush for throwing his shoes at george bush.
big ups to who ever came into the office last night to clean all the sparkles off my desk. alllriiiight.
big ups to anyone with a digital SLR camera for making photography the new "it" trend so that people will take their attention away from "hair dressing", neon, and cocaine.
big ups to the city of montreal for inadvertently showing me what the worst time of my life should feel like.
big ups to the city of niagara falls for showing me the opposite. (believe it or not...)
big ups to my mom for being the best mom anyone could ever ask for.
big ups to my brother for that day i showed up at his office swearing infront of everyone about the juice all over my purse.
big ups to the sweet potato for it's insanely low prices on amazing organic foods.
big ups to the asian woman in the variety store across the street for giving me a deal on cigarettes.
big ups to labbat 50.
big ups to my ever growing unreaaaal record collection that brings me more joy than most humans.
big ups to my idiot landlord for breaking so much shit in our lease that i can get off for not giving her enough notice about us moving out.
and last but not least...
big ups to me for getting through all the garbage that just got thrown at me and feeling like a million bucks.
go me.

xo

dead weight.

"I dipped a cat toy in chicken bouillon and lionel is being the cutest ever!".

someone needs to fix jens leg. soon.

SO i got a noogie from my 60 year old boss on friday.
a noogie.
i almost got fired. for, i'm not really sure what... apparently i just walked in at the worst possible time after sleeping in. but i called. and she was fine so that wasn't the reason.
And then at lunch i got a paycheque, and a noogie, and an "it'll get better."
rediculous.

I have been staying up until ungodly hours of the night/morning with Jen playing this completely awesome Indiana Jones Lego game. i think Annie sending her an X-box was one othe best/worst things to ever happen to our lives. life. hahahaha
My cell phone is still broken. and i don't have money to get a new one yet. Just incase any of you have tried to get a hold of me and couldn't. or thought i was ignoring you.

I'm covered in sparkles from doing all these stupid christmas cards. my desk is covered. my phone is covered. my face is covered.
worst.
I don't hate christmas, but i hate most things christmas related.
Anyway, i feel like this month, and this comming year could be a huge huge turning point in my life. i don't want to jinx anything, but i feel like i'm about to get so good. or maybe life is about to get so good and i'm going to stay shitty....
jaykayjaykay.

+'s
getting my own place
decorating my own place
laptop for christmas...maybe
furniture shopping
tattoos saturday
melly friday

-'s
mizzin' u


xo

well i've got a confession...

ha ha ha ha.

So last night i went out with an old friend to the reservoir lounge.

we actually sat at that exact table and drank wine and listened to this jazz band all night. it was different for me. but good different. with good conversation as always, that comes more naturally than sleep.

i was... fairly intoxicated when i got the text from jenjen on my way home saying she was dans l'hopital. huuuuuuuuuuge bummer. i sad.

i've been working like a dog lately. and my boss is growing increasingly more insane as the days go on. Comming to work every morning is like being a hostage stuck inside a building waiting for a bomb to go off. actually.
no i am not exaggerating.
I spent a solid 4 hours yesterday in the office in silence hearing only the repeated slamming of her wireless mouse.
is it worth it? i don't know. probably not. but until i move, i'm staying i guess.

i'm getting tattooed twice in the next week and a half. i think? i haven't heard from dan since the middle of november so... lets say atleast once.
this isn't interesting.
you aren't at all who i thought you were
you either.
or you actually.
Dissapointed? not really.
Suprised? not in the least.

xo

all hope abandon, ye who enter here

SO woah. yeah. whats up Crisis week.
My grandad passed on friday, i'm sure you all heard. That was the hardest death i've ever had to accept. and thats all i want to say about that right now.
On Friday afternoon i left work to go be with my mom before we even knew any of this was going down and managed to dump an entire bottle of Vitamin water out in my purse all over my phone and ipod.
the ipod Survived. my phone... only kind of survived.

Yesterday i worked the Royal Bank Christmas Party and it actually ruled. I hate serving more than anything on the face of the planet, strictly because i'm totally done with jobs where people don't even see you as being human.
Anyway, i worked as a bar back which meant the only people i had to interact with were my own staff and that made the night awesome.
it still sucked being in a room of 600 suits... but i made a lot of money so i'm over it.
I'm doing the CIBC christmas party next week too, which should be atleast another 7 hours. moneymoneymoneymoneyiceymoneymoney.

does anyone even.... read this anymore? hahaha
i need more boots. and i wish i could wear heels sometimes.
this makes no sense because im on the phone with jen.

c u!
xo

oh heyyy blog friends.
it's been a while. the office has been a bit uptight and hectic lately so it's been harder for me to write. Plus, seeing as my life seems to be the largest pile of shit lately i didn't want this to turn into bummerspot.

two things i am looking forward to:
getting tattooed on sunday. KINDA. i'm liking getting tattooed less and less because i think my pain tolerance is going away forever... but this ones important. My grandad probably isn't going to make it to Christmas. so atleast he'll get to see this before he goes.
and fitness with jen on Saturday. FITNESS! the act of getting and being fit. melon pants. melon ass. mash ups. omg.

Winter has always sucked for me. no matter whats going on it's just never a good time. This year it just seems like there's a lot more shitty garbage adding to how crappy my winter is going to be. Crappy living situations, crappy friends, crappy grandad situation.

If you're going to talk to people about me behind my back i am not going to be friends with you.
end of story. i am above all of this petty bullshit that no one i used to be friends with seems to have outgrown.
i am not going to get involved, and you and i are no longer cool.
thats all there is to it.

i am trying to make my room as much it's own space as humanly possible. if anyone wants to come to ikea with me next weekend to shop for some stuff... i'd appreciate the company.

i'm starting to just not care anymore, about a lot of things... which honestly should probably concern me. but it doesn't.
which ironically, is concerning in itself.

SHOES! i can't be bothered to explain all of them but most of them are artist releases (like musicians), a pair of "thrashin" sb highs, the MOB hi edition that i wish didn't have patent leather, and those patent fucking studded supra's that i want just for those times i like to dress up and pretend i'm gene simmons.

life lessons.

my current daily album playlist:

lifetime - lifetime
lifetime - jersey's best dancers
new found glory - tip of the iceberg
loved ones - keep your heart
loved ones- build and burn
bars - introducing
suicide file - some mistakes you never stop paying for
justin timberlake - future sex/love sounds

Last night i headed to siesta to hang with vik.
I've never seen any of the bands that played last night live before but trap them was unreal. Siesta Nouveaux was such a fucking wicked find for this city. and the stuff that goes on there is almost always 100% decent and actually makes me enjoy going to shows again.
Anyway, saw a lot of Jose, which was awesome because you can never get enough little brother in your life. shared my rosemary and olive oil triscuts with everyone (I'm actually a little surprised at the amount of people who didn't even know they existed...)
i love sharing.
and then yeah, saw a bunch of other people i really like seeing and that was that.
I'm a little bitter about the occurrences of the rest of the night... but i wont get into those because it's really not important.
It did however, somehow trigger a bunch of shit I've been mooring over the past few weeks and helped me come to a few decisions.
For the next little while i am going to be pretty much entirely encompassed in work. and my writing. I really want to make as much money as humanly possible and seeing as my boss wants me to start going to all these events I'm just going to suck it up and serve for all these corporate assholes and make a lot of money doing so.
I also want more than anything to have a solid piece of writing finished by new years. a piece being a short story, or a couple chapters of this book I've been trying to write for like.. 5 months, or a collection of other crap... anything. anything that i can use to submit as a sample so i can do freelance work, or something i can use as a strong base for something bigger.

then in my spare time, at least whatever is left of it, I'm going to get tattooed.
and buy records.
probably get poutine from utopia with Jen.
and VACATE Toronto as much as i can manage.

my schedule for the next week is as follows:

Friday - Hamilton hangs (YAY), possibly the ERGS! show or Circa
Saturday - boots shopping with wifelife, home for mom times
Sunday - vegetarian buffet thanksgiving at moms (my mom being veg. is so sick)
Monday - visiting grandad at his house (hopefully... I'm pretty sick of mcmaster) and seeing some of the relatives from England.
Tuesday - work 9-5, work at CTV for the elections party/show 5-1am
Wednesday - work 9-5, possible jose hangs
Thursday - work 9-5, possible jose hangs
Friday - work 9-5, eating glass at siesta
Saturday - tattoo appointment 6pm - 8ish, possible trek to Burlington for eating glass at Spencer's
Sunday - record shopping

anyway, i have a lot of shit to do, including a huge wedding proposal...
seems like I've been saying this a lot lately, but it's time for a new start.

so lets leave the past behind us, and focus on whats next...

you know what i mean?
xo

when life gives you lemons

.....i really wish life would stop giving me fucking lemons. haha

my grandad went into ICU yesterday.
i was in guelph hanging out with three of the coolest little boys on the planet when my mom called. i guess it isn't good. i guess he's having all these weird complicatons they weren't expecting and he's just getting weaker and weaker and more out of it.
I couldn't bring myself to go down there yesterday. seeing him like that is so depressing and i don't want my last memories of my grandad to be of him in the hospital raging and in pain and not really knowing who i am.
no thanks.

anyway, the shit with ***** and this is only two of a common "bad things come in three's" fate, so i'm waiting for something else really awful to happen to kind of cap off this great time i've been having. perhaps i'll lose my job.
or if i'm really lucky i'll get hit by a truck or something.
who knows.
so if i've been texting any of you incessantly and hating life i'm sorry. i'm really just trying to take my mind off things.

can't wait for thursday. hung out with Vik last night and spent a rediculous amount on groceries. also aquired thrashin', fight club, the notorious bettie page, and marie antoinette on the weekend for a grand total of 29$. that ruled. and hopefully this week i'm going to get my stomach tattooed. hopefully.

anyway, i have interviews to do... if anyone wants to hang out this week let me know, i'm going to try and keep myself as busy as possible while trying to avoid high traffic streets and parking lots.
har har.


xo

nothing important.

current things i'm lurking.

i'm muchos sickos.

this weekend was a weird blur and i don't really feel like getting into details of what i did.

this week is going to be much of the same.

-sales downtown

-shitty office work

-bffles return

-tattoo tomorrow

-dlyf thursday (maybe)

-unrequited text messages

-waking up at 5am to pumpkin

-jen g in mtl (gay)

-running out of money

-not having a bike or a dog

-being sick

i want nate to come back.

i can't wait for the 19th weekend.

and it seems like everyday i'm giving up on/regaining hope with so many aspects of my life it's actually impossible to keep track.

stay out of trouble kids.

xo

save the drama for your mama

hey kids.
so i found this new website from euroland that fucking rules and is going to consume a lot of my future paycheques.
FML.

so last weekend... crazy.
friday night was the dbd warriors terror show. kinda lame. lame people. lame ex girlfriends trying to blow anything that spoke. lame crackheads breaking into vans.
the usual non stuck in the city show garbage.

Saturday moms came down and hung out with me and Katherine for a while. i've known Katherine since i was born and she finally came back from out west last week so it ruled seeing her. (don't go back you bitch)..... (much love)
Anyway, after lunch at Danis work Kat went to find a place to live and mom and i tried to venture to the waterfront. after she bought me shoes and i took her to H&M.
needless to say we didn't make it to the waterfront. but it ruled seeing my mom. because my mom rules. (which is obviously why I rule)
from SATURDAY night i slept fucking... something rediculous like 23 hours and woke up monday morning with a headache from hell, so naturally i went to hang out with my good friend vik, see his new place, and watch the season premier of gossip girl with bee and catherine.
seeing that show just makes me love leighton meester more and more every time.

Yesterday i did this crazy TIFF kick off party. it was....crazy. i don't have any other words to describe it. a venue that i thought was substantially large became smaller and smaller within minutes until it eventually took me half an hour to get from the front of the building to the back room where we were keeping everything important.
shit got hectic. and it was a lot of fun.

but i'm super glad it's over.

TUESDAY i'm going to get my back finished. and while i thought i was going to get matt to draw out the script i want on my stomach while i was there... i'm going to do this instead. (with some minor changes...)
seeing as i'm working so many corporate functions in the next few months i really have to hold off on all things visible for a little while until i build up a client base that isn't going to care about my tattoos.
so anyway, i'm making it a side piece.
and the always heavy handed matthew ellis is PROBABLY going to destroy me... so if anyone wants to come see me cry i'd appreciate a distraction when i get this bad boy started.

well, it's 5 after 5. i have to get out of here and see what's up tonight.
i gotta be at the TSX tomorrow morning at 7:30, but does anyone wanna party? DLYF?
hollerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!

xo

i am entirely predictable

Gemini - August 29, 2008
A goal that you may have been working toward for a long time might still seem very distant right now, dear Gemini. Therefore, today you could actually find yourself giving up on it. This doesn't, however, imply that what you want will never happen. In fact, sometimes letting go of a dream can actually cause it to manifest. Remember this when you start to brood on your lack of success so far.
All is not hopeless!

if you say so MSN horoscopes. if you say so.

i did all that i could anyway, so i can be ok with walking away for now.

cath you later alligator. see you on the other side.

got my dress for the film festival yesterday. kind of excited about this party. eventhough im totally behind the scenes, just because i had/will have such a big part in making it happen.

ME.

shy, introverted, little me. (or not so little me... i've gained like 10 pounds. ugh)

anyway,

lol.

xo

Movin' up

so we moved our entire office upstairs yesterday.
computers. desks. fax machine. everythinnng.
i didn't realize i knew so much about computer set up. we were done in like half an hour and i saved us about 300$. (end bragging.)
HOWEVER, this is quite possibly the end of me lurking the internet for hours on end at work seeing as my boss now sits directly behind me. thumbs down.

hung out with (insert name here) yesterday. i haven't seen him in such a long time and quite honestly not a lot has changed. and thats not a bad thing. sometimes i like people to stay constant... it's nice to know you can rely on things staying the same sometimes.
telling you all who i'm talking about would bring more drama to my life and his than either of us should have to deal with in an entire lifetime. some people just seriously lack in maturity.

i don't know whats up this week. i don't have a lot of money until next paycheque and i don't know if i feel like hitting DLYF this week. My mom is probably comming down on the weekend, which rules because she hasn't even seen my new house yet and it'll be the first time i've seen her where i don't have to hide any of my tattoos. bonus. BUT, i will probably go shopping with B saturday if my mom comes sunday. so atleast i have one thing to look forward to.

so, everyday i take the TTC atleast twice to get to and from work. which involves a bus, the subway and another bus. I have lived in the city for almost 2 years now and it blows my FUCKING mind how many people who get onto the ttc, do not know how to get off of it. I'm not sure, if everyone is just mildly retarded, or if there really is a disgusting amount of illiterate people walking around... but when there are large font signs stating the proper way to exit a bus or a streetcar, or there are big yellow poles with the word PUSH in giant black letters on them, i don't understand how atleast once a day i see someone yell to the front about how they can't get out the back doors.
i think the TTC and the people who take it are one of my biggest pet peeves on the planet.
along with people who leave miniscule amounts of liquid in milk cartons/juice cartons/pop bottles and leave them in the fridge. I HATE YOU ALL.

So, with that being said... i should probably find something to fill my afternoon with seeing as the boss lady should be back from lunch soon.

just because you've never done it doesn't mean it can't be done...
if you know who sang that i'll be your friend for life.

xo

You mad?

viks mad.

hahaha don't get me started on reasoning. but i'll make it up to him at DLYF.

and then i will kindly ask him to remove the BLACK CLOUD OF DOOM he has put over my master life plan.

"Pleasure in the job puts perfection in the work" - Aristotle

So i'm doing the TIFF kickoff party at the Deluxe post production studios on Adelaide east. 3 bars (two full, one martini), a cappuccino bar and a couple of passed hors d'oeuvres.

little food & lots of alch. = 250+ drunk people.

My boss has been letting me head a lot more projects lately which rules to the fullest. And actually, even though yesterday was only snacks, and my driver forgot my linens and bottled water and other small necessities... Cervelo Cycles was such a wicked little place. And everyone was way too nice and laid back. It made covering for all the missed stuff a lot less stressful.

However, in saying that i've now revised a quote 5 times for this guy in Denver that's having his annual partners meeting at the Toronto Stock Exchange in September.

Now, i don't know how much any of you know about catering or event planning but let me just tell you that revising quotes is a huge pain in the ass, especially more than once.

Enough about work.

Yesterday i went to the Ex with Michelle and Steve. Hanging out with Michelle again ruled. i won her a Knuckles. Then she won, and traded up for a much more furry, less crooked eyed tiger. Got some pretty cute stuff that i will debut later. Jen Gillen will be pleased ( i live to please jen G... especially when she sends me pictures of weird hand drawn "Wu-tang for life" posters at absurd hours of the day). Hopefully she went weasel missioning.

i know i keep referring to "weaseling", and none of you probably have any idea of what i'm talking about... except maybe angry Vik. but don't worry lovelies. you're not really missing anything.

So next weekend is the terror, warriors, DBD show. is anyone going to this? is EVERYONE going to this? i know i'm going to end up there, but some events in the past week or so have made me think twice about it definitely. I don't think i can pass up seeing Frankie. haha
I miss his brotherly headlocks and and using me as an unwilling sparring partner.
The past month has just been such a roller coaster for me, i don't know if i can put myself in the position i know i'm going to be in going there.

WHO KNOWS.

anyway, i've been at work for an hour and a half and have accomplished nothing.

Disney Couture please

xo

ohhh nooo

jen and i.
workin that weasel.

so what if i'm a little bit of a terrible human being, thats why most of you love me.
and i more like to consider myself as being determined.


i have a tasting this morning at enwave then i'm heading over to Cervelo Cycles to set up my stupid event. Fruit, and pastries, and coffee are so boring.


i need to start planning million dollar parties. and thats all there is to it.


Made an appointment to finish the beast yesterday. Matt Ellis is such a solid guy you should all really check out his work.


I ALSO, dyed my hair brown again yesterday... pictures to follow. soon. seriously.

in the meantime.... someone PLEASE buy me this BB Dakota dress:

DLYF tomorrow night. come out. i wont be crazy.
vik probably will.


xo