tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-76447105392690163842024-02-07T15:35:31.317-08:00getting sick of the tastejulia clairehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12178296156958363946noreply@blogger.comBlogger206125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7644710539269016384.post-14807568290443776592010-04-13T07:45:00.001-07:002010-04-13T07:48:57.520-07:00julia clairehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12178296156958363946noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7644710539269016384.post-9167597359336757012010-02-03T11:08:00.000-08:002010-02-03T11:12:52.873-08:00everytime i see a toyota guest services vehicule i always think of my grandad.<br />i miss him.julia clairehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12178296156958363946noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7644710539269016384.post-4822677610099460322010-01-21T07:49:00.000-08:002010-01-21T07:51:18.560-08:00hair day<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhi0YmChN4NEs0uH1LHo-vwq1Jmpxd5Fh0ncQny82maEjOyHWZVMBZStHxsHPYeyldyuJEihUEAV4ZDNuNHRV7y4nZsWw_uE86nY90asIfQt5VsbiZVcrPGNkMgzG0pTsBJszj8VQy-Wi8i/s1600-h/IMG01120.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 228px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhi0YmChN4NEs0uH1LHo-vwq1Jmpxd5Fh0ncQny82maEjOyHWZVMBZStHxsHPYeyldyuJEihUEAV4ZDNuNHRV7y4nZsWw_uE86nY90asIfQt5VsbiZVcrPGNkMgzG0pTsBJszj8VQy-Wi8i/s320/IMG01120.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5429221197153562322" /></a><br /><br /><br />im unsure if it's good or bad.<br />yesterday i loved it. today... i dont know. <br /><br />The never ending saga that is the love hate relationship between me and my keratin.<br /><br />xojulia clairehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12178296156958363946noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7644710539269016384.post-76658806000723990552010-01-21T06:47:00.000-08:002010-01-21T07:07:50.101-08:00i need to change this layoutbig into change right now.<br />i can't do enough things to shake up my current life. i am so so so bored with everything.<br />i've also become weight obsessed. theres nothing worse than looking at yourself and hating most of what you see. <br />so inbetween my current work/school schedule... i'm also going to be trying to find time to go to the gym three times a week... which will get much easier when im not in school two nights a week.<br />as well as trying to have a social life. which has been pretty much non-existant except for the dinner i had with jen last night and the two beers i had with heather after school thursday that lead to my comatose friday. (TWO BEERS. I AM A SAD SAD HUMAN BEING.)<br />Anyway, im going to try and start updating a little more regularly. i say that all the time but i am. for real. not that i think anyone really reads this anymore anyway.<br /><br />xojulia clairehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12178296156958363946noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7644710539269016384.post-46407289816752921872009-12-18T10:33:00.000-08:002009-12-18T10:46:48.479-08:00waking up on the wrong side of the bedit happens. <br />it's not even that i'm angry, mostly just sucky...maybe kinda whiney.<br /><br />i'm really nervous about my exam tomorrow. <br />and i've never ever been any good at studying. i don't know how to make study notes. the context isn't even hard but i have the worst short term memory.<br /><br />So, jenn liles did this unreal gypsy/cobra piece on some dudes arm that totally sold me on having her do my sleeve ( i feel like im tattoo artist cheating... it's terrible ) but her lines are so so thin and the features in all her female faces are so perfect and exactly what i want i think she'll do an incredible job.<br /><br />there are a few things that are really irritating me right now, but i guess i'll just drink too much tomorrow night with katie to even think about them.<br /><br />i thought i saw ollie in the subway yesterday. it made me feel like i was going to puke instantly. not even because i ever even remotely think about him ever but more because this time i wouldn't have any sort of escape plan. <br />turns out i didn't need one anyway.<br /><br />anyway, wish me luck!<br /><br />xojulia clairehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12178296156958363946noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7644710539269016384.post-37701371579194803362009-12-15T19:01:00.000-08:002009-12-15T19:03:48.523-08:00this latte is shittyinstant latte. <br />bad call.<br /><br />http://vimeo.com/8176533<br /><br />adam and i made a gingerbread house. it's really cute and im really happy that the cats aren't eating it.<br />i'm really happy that we have power again.<br />i'm really happy that i saw katie on saturday.<br />i'm really happy that my boyfriend knows that i love head bands and feathers and a combination of the two.<br />i'm really happy.<br /><br /><br />oh.<br /><br /><br />and i'm quitting my job.<br /><br />xojulia clairehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12178296156958363946noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7644710539269016384.post-82709695817305671072009-11-17T19:14:00.000-08:002009-11-17T19:22:13.466-08:00my new serious beef.COMPLAINERS. CONSTANT COMPLAINERS.<br />i have my fair share of shit to be unhappy with, but not all the time and not all the time publically.<br /><br />wah, my paradise vacation is too hot.<br />wah, my adorable new puppy is being a pain.<br />wah, my friends who are my friends this week but i hated last week are all inconsiderate. (duh)<br />wah, i stay up way too late for no reason in particular and now im too tired to function so i'm going to complain about it all fucking day<br />wah, wah, wah, wah fucking wah.<br /><br />shut up. no one cares. and i wish it wouldn't cause mad teen DRAMZ for me to just cut you all out of my life completely.<br /><br />on a brighter note, i can't wait to make a gingerbread house this year.<br />or for mom to make me empire cookies.<br /><br />lovelove.<br /><br />xojulia clairehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12178296156958363946noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7644710539269016384.post-61281199380512298022009-11-03T12:08:00.000-08:002009-11-03T13:54:16.286-08:00breaking pointThere just comes a point.<br />and i think i just hit it.julia clairehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12178296156958363946noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7644710539269016384.post-29798618680660927252009-10-26T13:27:00.000-07:002009-10-26T13:30:13.167-07:00it started that night...when we were sitting across the table from them and he squeezed more lime into her black bean soup and then she kissed him.<br />and everyday since then all i can think is... that used to be us. <br />and i just don't know why it isn't anymore.<br /><br />how do you tell someone you care about more than anything in the entire world that they need help.<br /><br />so much on my mind. so much time all the time to try and figure things out but i dont want to face the realities of what i need to do to make everything ok again. <br />because after all... it might never really be ok again.<br /><br />fact.<br /><br />xojulia clairehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12178296156958363946noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7644710539269016384.post-10646977542083076182009-10-02T12:18:00.000-07:002009-10-02T12:27:15.895-07:00OCTOBER IS AWESOMEOCTOBER 2nd- night in with vik<br />OCTOBER 3rd- Vaughn mills with momma, Nuit Blanche with Liz and JenJen<br />OCTOBER 4th- Andrew w.k with JenJen<br />OCTOBER 10th- Adamlove comes home i hopehope<br />OCTOBER 13th- Gaslight Anthem/ Loved Ones with Adamlove<br />OCTOBER 23rd, 24th, 25th- NYC with momma<br />OCTOBER 26th- Metallica with Adamlove<br />OCTOBER 30th- Cro Mags<br />OCTOBER 31st- First class, Halloween as Little Red Riding Hood with Adamlove<br /><br /><br />xojulia clairehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12178296156958363946noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7644710539269016384.post-2139732003750670792009-09-28T13:06:00.000-07:002009-09-28T13:12:05.665-07:00while you're out travelling the world.i'm here just looking for a reason to leave it all behind.julia clairehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12178296156958363946noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7644710539269016384.post-64780172435460688222009-09-22T08:55:00.000-07:002009-09-22T09:01:34.053-07:00so school?i guess so.<br />my classes are as follows...( the first few sound so hokey....but i have to take them as pre requisites to the make up course...)<br /><br /><em>October 31st - November 21st - Makeup Colour Theory - Saturdays 10:00 - 3:30<br />November 28th - December 19th - Art of Eyebrow Shaping - Saturdays 10:00 - 4:00<br />January 5th - February 4th - Skin Preparation - Tuesdays and Thursdays 6:00 - 10:00<br /><br />February 16th - May 27th - Professional Makeup I - Tuesdays and Thursdays 6:00 - 10:00</em><br /><br />Excited? yeah. <br />i'll be even more excited if i can quit my job at the end of october and do all of this faster.<br /><br />xojulia clairehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12178296156958363946noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7644710539269016384.post-15469603283334380942009-09-16T08:19:00.000-07:002009-09-16T08:40:35.982-07:00it has been so longi was on a blog rampage and then it stopped. <br />i don't know if i got sick of hearing myself moan and groan or more just self conscious that other people were.<br />i've had a bit of time to think about things. a lot of time actually.. probably more than i wanted.<br />and to be honest i should be a lot more sure of what i'm feeling, than i currently am right now.<br /><br />i saw evan last night. Evan is like the one person i wish i could have in my life everyday that i can't. Everything about him in so sincere and genuine, and i already miss him more than i did before i got to spend time with him yesterday.<br /><br />can we just go ahead and fast forward the next month of my life.... because i have a feeling things are going to get really weird. i've gotten myself into a couple weird situations right now and i don't really want to think of ways to have to get myself out of them. <br />i'd like to just skip it all together.<br /><br />please.<br /><br />xojulia clairehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12178296156958363946noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7644710539269016384.post-37641044216361522682009-09-05T09:24:00.001-07:002009-09-05T09:24:56.204-07:00so...i beat a cab across town last night on my bike. <br />granted they probably got stuck in a lot more traffic than i did.... but i'm still fairly impressed with myself.<br /><br /><br />I LIKE TO GO FAST.<br />YA.<br /><br />xojulia clairehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12178296156958363946noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7644710539269016384.post-47901042683336125792009-09-04T07:11:00.000-07:002009-09-04T07:23:07.944-07:00so much for the afterglowi am tired of missing you.<br /><br />period.julia clairehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12178296156958363946noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7644710539269016384.post-68186922053675944942009-09-01T09:47:00.000-07:002009-09-01T10:01:29.667-07:00just because you believe in something doesn't mean it exists.lets roll with that for a moment.<br />true/false: you can will something into existence<br />true/false: it doesn't matter the outcome, its the willingness to try<br />true/false: good things really are worth waiting for<br /><br />why do i regret last night so much.julia clairehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12178296156958363946noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7644710539269016384.post-83055462865010959912009-08-31T21:57:00.001-07:002009-08-31T21:57:59.089-07:00so much heartbreakin one little girl.<br /><br />xojulia clairehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12178296156958363946noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7644710539269016384.post-81110153422836839792009-08-29T17:21:00.000-07:002009-08-29T17:25:53.145-07:00yeah.i guess at some point in my life i did something to deserve all of this.<br />bye.<br /><br />xojulia clairehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12178296156958363946noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7644710539269016384.post-57473020428275809732009-08-27T07:47:00.000-07:002009-08-27T07:59:45.546-07:00ignorance is blissim at a place right now where i dont really know how to move on from here because i dont know where i want to go first.<br />might sound cool, because it means i have options, but it's not...because as all of you know that means i have to make a decision and decision making is not my finest quality as a human.<br />it makes me jealous of all those that have no ideaaa whats going on in the world outside of their own pitiful lives. sure they may not get to experience anything or gain any sort of worldly knowledge, but they learn how to be infinitely comfortable in their own lives doing whatever it is that they do best.<br />i'm considering putting the money i was going to spend on going to NYC towards other things. going to NYC alone would be fun for all of 6 hours before i didn't know how to entertain myself anymore and i'd just get uncomfortable. plus staying in a hotel by myself is going to be outrageously expensive. <br />Maybe i'll just go to Jersey to see Evan and do a day trip. i dont know.<br />everyone is excited to go back to school in september and hearing them talk about it makes me really sad. not to the point of tears or anything i just wish i could have even a little bit of help going back to school so that i could start sooner rather than way, way later. sure i appreciate having to work for things in my life as opposed to having everything handed to me but i'm old enough now that i understand the value of responsibility and self provision, so a little help would just be really nice.<br /><br />i feel like something is missing from my life. i've really only felt it in the past 2 weeks, and i don't really know what im supposed to fill the void with. <br />again, with the decisions.<br />xojulia clairehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12178296156958363946noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7644710539269016384.post-5208738093308317372009-08-24T07:23:00.001-07:002009-08-24T09:47:22.078-07:00is that what you call a get away?well tell me what you got away with...<br /><br />For once i actually HOPE that you read this. <br /><br />it might just be a power drill (that isn't yours by the way, incase you forgot...that you also didn't ask to "borrow")<br />But it is now also a perfect representation of why we are no longer, and will never be friends.<br />you have no respect for yourself.<br />you have no respect for other people.<br />and you are still the most selfish person i think i've ever had the unfortunate oppourtunity of knowing.<br /><br />im also sure my dad will be stoked, you fucking idiot.<br />Have a great time in niagara falls. I hope you fail as successfully there as you did here.<br /><br />xojulia clairehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12178296156958363946noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7644710539269016384.post-63273118081422833702009-08-20T06:38:00.000-07:002009-08-20T07:48:26.239-07:00im not the queen of the world but im the queen of the streets...i just want to live a cute life.<br />sans illnesses. <br />sans shitty people.<br />sans unnecessary stress.<br /><br />im going to montreal this weekend with katie. hang out with some friends... shopping therapy. aux vivres! maybe a night of drinking and dancing... i hope. and most importantly, clear my head. figure out what i really want. <br />it'll make it that much easier to set a plan in motion to get my life in order. <br /><br />P.S.<br /><br />SEE YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!<br />wouldn't want to fuckin' be ya. <br /><br /><br />xojulia clairehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12178296156958363946noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7644710539269016384.post-65827530989314280432009-08-17T18:02:00.000-07:002009-08-17T18:27:55.853-07:00over and over.its just one thing after another. it doesn't stop. and the more i keep trying to fool myself into thinking this is what i need to do, it's stupid. and it's killing me inside. <br />it's so fucking stupid.<br />THIS IS SO FUCKING STUPID. WAKE UP.<br />i might have fucking celiac disease which... i dont even know. its not a huge deal but it effects my life massively and it's just the last thing i fucking need right now. fucking gluten. <br />i'm so sick of trying be there for everyone and always feeling so fucking alone all the time when i need someone.<br />i find it really funny that with all the stuff im currently trying to deal with i still find time for people who are important to me and who need me no matter how hard it is. <br />i dont do things based on what im going to get in return EVER, but this is getting a bit ridiculous.<br />i'm not fine, so stop telling me i'll be fucking fine.<br /><br />xojulia clairehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12178296156958363946noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7644710539269016384.post-45511076610778917712009-08-17T13:53:00.001-07:002009-08-17T13:54:19.530-07:00it's weirdthat im closer than i thought i would be...<br />but thats what's driving me to just give up.<br /><br /><br />xojulia clairehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12178296156958363946noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7644710539269016384.post-38242567865121513672009-08-14T20:11:00.000-07:002009-08-14T20:47:25.811-07:00shove your hope where it don't shineserious down night.<br /><br />"once i was nothing but now i'm just meant for you... <br /><br />i.<br />was meant.<br />for you."<br /><br />sometimes this is so much harder than other times... tonight is the first time i've cried about it in a while and i think i've been doing pretty terrific otherwise. <br />i dont know if its just because sometimes i miss you more on certain days, or the fear that sits in the back of my mind that someone better is just around the corner for you, i just can't shake the downs. <br /><br />i can't believe your cupcakes melted. :(<br />i just want all of this to be over so we can just go back to be being best friends and being the worlds best couple so i dont have to say sorry for all the feelings i have for you.<br /><br /><br />this is dumb.<br />love is a battlefield? <br />fuck you pat benatar.<br /><br />xojulia clairehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12178296156958363946noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7644710539269016384.post-2224054646824342412009-08-13T20:47:00.000-07:002009-08-13T20:49:20.078-07:00like this like this like this"i dont care about your tits, you could be an a cup."<br /><br />amen, brother.julia clairehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12178296156958363946noreply@blogger.com0