growing pains.

so recently, i said something pretty shitty to someone who didn't really deserve it.
Bad timing i guess.

"it's funny how you can grow your hair out and start wearing dresses and suddenly everyone can see what a great person you are."

Maybe i shouldn't be complaining. but for whatever reason it just doesn't sit right with me when someone couldn't give me the time of day a year ago and suddenly they can't live without me. or need to know me. or need to be around me.

and i don't just mean one person, i mean multiple persons. And maybe a year, or two years, or three years ago i would have killed for that much attention from those kinds of people, but now? not a fucking chance.

none of it really matters anyway as it doesn't really apply to anyone that reads this.
I'm not going to say much else.
But i know what i want.
And it's not any of you.

xo