Hey you

Glad to have you back.
xo

WIN

3/3.

remember when i said "i really want things to work out"?
Well, they did. in every circumstance i was referring to.

can't wait to see vik and "friendzone" tomorrow.
mostly so i can figure out where the name "friendzone" came from.

xo

every line is about who i dont wanna write about anymore.

ha ha hee hee :) yay!

fucking.
blow me.

this might be... the best/worst post i have ever made.
because im not even going to write it.


and if you let me have my way i'll fucking tear you apart....

come on and lets be honest

did you really think that you could be.... all i ever wanted.

It's funny how you can idolize people for so long and then one conversation makes you realize they're just like every other scumbag in the city.
(that so much funnier than i planned for it to be.)

Anyway,
it just makes me appreciate those i have and the reasons i have them that much more.

going home early today rules.

xo

Real talk. For real.

A real life post. not just "this is all the stuff i want but cannot afford" post.
after everything that went on last week i needed to get a little bit of partyrage out of my system.. .which i guess is where thursday and friday came from. Thursday being the lesser of two evils was spent at strangelove as mentioned previously.
Friday i went to Hamilton for Nikita's birthday with the intention of drowning out the previous nights hangover with way too much more alcohol.
I still hate Hamilton, but overall, it was worth it.
Jager + Jagerredbull + Vodkalime + Vodkalime + Budweiser + Jager + Vodkalime + Vodkashowers = me getting kicked out of the casbah at 2:15am.
eating half a pita.
yelling at adam for changing the tv channels and making me feel sick. (sorry pal)
waking up like this.

and going for golden griddle all you can eat breakfast buffets.
Favourite BBM line(s) of the night :

Julia Claire: Fucj that
Julia Claire: Oloaztg moore
SHP: Sooo wasted
Julia Claire: Spoo wasted

that about sums it up.
Saturday night was spent mostly playing Xbox. and ordering way too much sushi which was the best idea we've had in a long time.

I feel like my entire life is in limbo right now. I dont know where anything is going and it's a good and a bad thing. it's giving me time to consider the things i want to change about my life but it's making me feel really uncertain about where i'm headed.
My relationships with Katie, Jen, Vik, Jose... and actually even Ben and Alex are some of the most important things i have right now.
I still need a Vacation. like A.S.A.P. but i feel like as we get past february... or even just this week things will start to sort themselves out.
I really want things to work out. in every sense that could possibly be taken as it applies to so many current situations in my life.
And i really want a raise so i can start to purchase all this shit i've been posting. and maybe paint my blue room of doom.

xo

oh god oh god oh god oh god.

ogogogogogogogogogog.

OG.

xo.

hey dj pump this party

i wish the whole world loved 90's dance tunes as much as i do.
i actually had a really decent time last night. the music sucked. and most of the people sucked.
But actually hanging out with jose was awesome.
and having polasian (dont ask) phil over was also awesome.
and i'm glad i finally got to see alex for once on one of her trips home from ottawa.

i might be more than a little bit stoked on these...








I might have worn them to work this morning even though there was very minimal sun. and Annie might be one of the most solid, honest, giving, and fucking wicked people i have ever met. Big ups to Jen Gillen for being a great judge of character. i can't wait until she comes down again.



I am super into pictures of pictures lately. and revamping. you know... revamping? no more red hair. no more overgrown bangs. no more blue room. no more living on a couch. no more bad friends. no more heartaches.
and lots of party.
(and bullshit....)

J.G.P.S.
Baby Zipper might be growing on me...maybe.

xo

murderate

me plz.

i once again, DO NOT GET IT. i feel like i've been saying this for months now. i give up.

on a happier note.... this is porkchop. (legal name: Toby Proctor)

he works for me on actsent, he was also the voice of everyone's favourite cartoon hunk on sailor moon: TUXEDO MASK.

yeah. i know. it's rediculous.

anyway... i hate babies. but his baby is so cute! her name is sydney and this picture is totally adorbs.

thinking bout the breeze

today.
tomorrow.
it really doesn't matter. the past 36 hours have abeen a complete blur of me thinking about this non stop and trying to forget it all at the same time.. i'd like to see you try.
day in and day out its the same god damn thing.
pretend not to care.
pretend its alright.
pretend it can only get better.
wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh is just a way to pretend that important things dont matter. making myself up to look less shitty than normal is just a pretend way to not feel defeated again.
but as soon as you dont have 100 things to distract you it all comes back. the dissapointment, the grief, the fucking self conciousness that rules your life. the reason why you never get involved in these things in the first place...because when it all comes crumbling down all you have left to hold on to are the things that you hate most about yourself.

i dont know. i'm so pissed off i dont even know what im talking about anymore.

juliaclaire says:
i feel awful

xgenevieve jeansonx says:
im sending the cat

juliaclaire says:
i dont want the cat hahahahha

xgenevieve jeansonx says:
its on its way

juliaclaire says:
you actually just saved me from another half hour of tears

juliaclaire says:
hahahaha

xgenevieve jeansonx says:
yesssss

xgenevieve jeansonx says:
but seriously whats your adress

juliaclaire says:
i dont know the postal code yet

xgenevieve jeansonx says:
ill find out

xgenevieve jeansonx says:
its going at 125 m/ph

juliaclaire says:
the cat?!

xgenevieve jeansonx says:
yes

Funny Face

....my answer is funny face.
by the way.

all i know is that to me you look like you're lots of fun

1:00am.

i thought sitting around by myself drinking a bottle of presidents and eating shit ghiradelli chocolates were going to be all the comfort i needed tonight.
boy was i wrong.

now im sitting here at 1:01 in the morning, my face fucking puffy and my head pounding watching the wedding singer strictly because drew barrymore is the cutest and in the end of it all...Julia wins.

living vicariously through movies on valentines day because i want so badly to know what that fucking feels like.

goodnight.
xo

polygraph

happy valentines day to any or all of you who buy into that stuff.
yeah it's cliche... and yeah its fucking commercialized to shit but... the last time i checked i am still a girl and it is still nice to have a reason to celebrate a shitty holiday like that.
even if your reason is the most static human being you've ever met who is going to spend the day at a job that he hates and then go to barrie. with no mention of appreciation or gratitude or even happiness.
its a funny world we live in.
it's a funny life i choose to lead.

sometimes i wonder if i've just grown accustom to abuse.
i wish i could see cursed play just one more time.

xo

PLZ?!?!?! post.

i want this outfit on my cute little bod pronto.















come on raise.
come on NYC.
come on trips to sunny places.

xo

i fucking warned you.

this is the shit i want. hook me up. i'm mass grumpy.
















The tights.... the shirt is cute too but i already have one thats mass similar.



























the piece de resistance...
I love this fucking necklace more than life.



this is ryan.
EDIT: he's a space cadet but he's my space cadet.



just another reason that proves i can't be sure about anything.

sick as a dog.

i was.
but im actually feeling better except that my blackberry seems to be screwing up already after only having it for like 2 weeks.
I haven't written in a while. i feel like i don't have a lot to say that i haven't already said a million times before.
i need a vacation.
my boss is crazy.
i love/hate toronto.
etc etc.

Taking jen to Mtl next weekend with me courtesy of my bossypants. thanks for the free hotel/plane tickets you batshit crazy piece of woman you. I'm supposed to be going to some huge event planning trade show/work shop things but whether or not i'll actually make it is another story to any/either of those.

You have quickly proven to be more than i ever thought possible, especially once i thought things started to go down the tubes, and i don't even deserve you. it sucks so much for me to see you so unhappy when the answer is so simple. or atleast seemingly simple to me... maybe i just don't understand having never worked 7 days a week in my life, but i can only imagine what that would do to me. physically and emotionally draining. thats all i can think over and over in my head and i wish there was some way i could get you out of this. thats not something i want anyone i care about to have to try and cope with on a day to day basis. And not being able to make you feel better kills me everyday...i can read you better than you think i can. and probably better than you hope i can too.

All i want to do lately is watch true romance because it reminds me of you.
I really fucking miss Dom. anyone who calls me "baby penguin" on the regular is someone i need to have in my life more. haha
I also miss Michelle, which reminds me that i need to read her blog when i'm done writing this...
and katie gale is the light of my life with her bk big fish and her baby face being late for workies due to bk big fishes and google image searches. big fish bk google big image fish searches.

AND it makes me glow on the inside comming home to two spaghetti cats, A.A.H, and Men Chillen erry dayz.

Life is good. lets get big.
xo


P.S. i plan on writing the longest "THESE ARE THE ITEMS I CURRENTLY WANT TO OWN" entry when i get home. beware.