my new serious beef.

COMPLAINERS. CONSTANT COMPLAINERS.
i have my fair share of shit to be unhappy with, but not all the time and not all the time publically.

wah, my paradise vacation is too hot.
wah, my adorable new puppy is being a pain.
wah, my friends who are my friends this week but i hated last week are all inconsiderate. (duh)
wah, i stay up way too late for no reason in particular and now im too tired to function so i'm going to complain about it all fucking day
wah, wah, wah, wah fucking wah.

shut up. no one cares. and i wish it wouldn't cause mad teen DRAMZ for me to just cut you all out of my life completely.

on a brighter note, i can't wait to make a gingerbread house this year.
or for mom to make me empire cookies.

lovelove.

xo

breaking point

There just comes a point.
and i think i just hit it.

it started that night...

when we were sitting across the table from them and he squeezed more lime into her black bean soup and then she kissed him.
and everyday since then all i can think is... that used to be us.
and i just don't know why it isn't anymore.

how do you tell someone you care about more than anything in the entire world that they need help.

so much on my mind. so much time all the time to try and figure things out but i dont want to face the realities of what i need to do to make everything ok again.
because after all... it might never really be ok again.

fact.

xo

OCTOBER IS AWESOME

OCTOBER 2nd- night in with vik
OCTOBER 3rd- Vaughn mills with momma, Nuit Blanche with Liz and JenJen
OCTOBER 4th- Andrew w.k with JenJen
OCTOBER 10th- Adamlove comes home i hopehope
OCTOBER 13th- Gaslight Anthem/ Loved Ones with Adamlove
OCTOBER 23rd, 24th, 25th- NYC with momma
OCTOBER 26th- Metallica with Adamlove
OCTOBER 30th- Cro Mags
OCTOBER 31st- First class, Halloween as Little Red Riding Hood with Adamlove


xo

while you're out travelling the world.

i'm here just looking for a reason to leave it all behind.

so school?

i guess so.
my classes are as follows...( the first few sound so hokey....but i have to take them as pre requisites to the make up course...)

October 31st - November 21st - Makeup Colour Theory - Saturdays 10:00 - 3:30
November 28th - December 19th - Art of Eyebrow Shaping - Saturdays 10:00 - 4:00
January 5th - February 4th - Skin Preparation - Tuesdays and Thursdays 6:00 - 10:00

February 16th - May 27th - Professional Makeup I - Tuesdays and Thursdays 6:00 - 10:00

Excited? yeah.
i'll be even more excited if i can quit my job at the end of october and do all of this faster.

xo

it has been so long

i was on a blog rampage and then it stopped.
i don't know if i got sick of hearing myself moan and groan or more just self conscious that other people were.
i've had a bit of time to think about things. a lot of time actually.. probably more than i wanted.
and to be honest i should be a lot more sure of what i'm feeling, than i currently am right now.

i saw evan last night. Evan is like the one person i wish i could have in my life everyday that i can't. Everything about him in so sincere and genuine, and i already miss him more than i did before i got to spend time with him yesterday.

can we just go ahead and fast forward the next month of my life.... because i have a feeling things are going to get really weird. i've gotten myself into a couple weird situations right now and i don't really want to think of ways to have to get myself out of them.
i'd like to just skip it all together.

please.

xo