Big ups post!

so... after spending for too much time alone in the office today i've decided to make a post to all the things i love, or hate that consequently result in something i love.

big ups to the Via rail and the TTC for making my boss just late enough this morning that i wasn't caught being late.
big ups to my boss for being the craziest woman i have ever met so that any boss i have in the future will be a walk in the park in comparison.
big ups to red hair dye for making me feel good about hacking all of my retarded hair off again.
big ups to matt ellis for always being able to decipher what the HELL i'm talking about.
big ups to jen gillen for being the best robot legged friend anyone could ever ask for.
big ups to katie gale for not throwing away her old winter jacket and helping me fashion it into a new one.
big ups to arthurs fresh company for making those amazing mango plus smoothies that i super enjoy.
big ups to feta cheese for being a perfect addition to any meal i happen to scroung together from the nothingness within my fridge.
big ups to that guy who threw his shoes at george bush for throwing his shoes at george bush.
big ups to who ever came into the office last night to clean all the sparkles off my desk. alllriiiight.
big ups to anyone with a digital SLR camera for making photography the new "it" trend so that people will take their attention away from "hair dressing", neon, and cocaine.
big ups to the city of montreal for inadvertently showing me what the worst time of my life should feel like.
big ups to the city of niagara falls for showing me the opposite. (believe it or not...)
big ups to my mom for being the best mom anyone could ever ask for.
big ups to my brother for that day i showed up at his office swearing infront of everyone about the juice all over my purse.
big ups to the sweet potato for it's insanely low prices on amazing organic foods.
big ups to the asian woman in the variety store across the street for giving me a deal on cigarettes.
big ups to labbat 50.
big ups to my ever growing unreaaaal record collection that brings me more joy than most humans.
big ups to my idiot landlord for breaking so much shit in our lease that i can get off for not giving her enough notice about us moving out.
and last but not least...
big ups to me for getting through all the garbage that just got thrown at me and feeling like a million bucks.
go me.

xo

dead weight.

"I dipped a cat toy in chicken bouillon and lionel is being the cutest ever!".

someone needs to fix jens leg. soon.

SO i got a noogie from my 60 year old boss on friday.
a noogie.
i almost got fired. for, i'm not really sure what... apparently i just walked in at the worst possible time after sleeping in. but i called. and she was fine so that wasn't the reason.
And then at lunch i got a paycheque, and a noogie, and an "it'll get better."
rediculous.

I have been staying up until ungodly hours of the night/morning with Jen playing this completely awesome Indiana Jones Lego game. i think Annie sending her an X-box was one othe best/worst things to ever happen to our lives. life. hahahaha
My cell phone is still broken. and i don't have money to get a new one yet. Just incase any of you have tried to get a hold of me and couldn't. or thought i was ignoring you.

I'm covered in sparkles from doing all these stupid christmas cards. my desk is covered. my phone is covered. my face is covered.
worst.
I don't hate christmas, but i hate most things christmas related.
Anyway, i feel like this month, and this comming year could be a huge huge turning point in my life. i don't want to jinx anything, but i feel like i'm about to get so good. or maybe life is about to get so good and i'm going to stay shitty....
jaykayjaykay.

+'s
getting my own place
decorating my own place
laptop for christmas...maybe
furniture shopping
tattoos saturday
melly friday

-'s
mizzin' u


xo

well i've got a confession...

ha ha ha ha.

So last night i went out with an old friend to the reservoir lounge.

we actually sat at that exact table and drank wine and listened to this jazz band all night. it was different for me. but good different. with good conversation as always, that comes more naturally than sleep.

i was... fairly intoxicated when i got the text from jenjen on my way home saying she was dans l'hopital. huuuuuuuuuuge bummer. i sad.

i've been working like a dog lately. and my boss is growing increasingly more insane as the days go on. Comming to work every morning is like being a hostage stuck inside a building waiting for a bomb to go off. actually.
no i am not exaggerating.
I spent a solid 4 hours yesterday in the office in silence hearing only the repeated slamming of her wireless mouse.
is it worth it? i don't know. probably not. but until i move, i'm staying i guess.

i'm getting tattooed twice in the next week and a half. i think? i haven't heard from dan since the middle of november so... lets say atleast once.
this isn't interesting.
you aren't at all who i thought you were
you either.
or you actually.
Dissapointed? not really.
Suprised? not in the least.

xo

oh heyyy blog friends.
it's been a while. the office has been a bit uptight and hectic lately so it's been harder for me to write. Plus, seeing as my life seems to be the largest pile of shit lately i didn't want this to turn into bummerspot.

two things i am looking forward to:
getting tattooed on sunday. KINDA. i'm liking getting tattooed less and less because i think my pain tolerance is going away forever... but this ones important. My grandad probably isn't going to make it to Christmas. so atleast he'll get to see this before he goes.
and fitness with jen on Saturday. FITNESS! the act of getting and being fit. melon pants. melon ass. mash ups. omg.

Winter has always sucked for me. no matter whats going on it's just never a good time. This year it just seems like there's a lot more shitty garbage adding to how crappy my winter is going to be. Crappy living situations, crappy friends, crappy grandad situation.

If you're going to talk to people about me behind my back i am not going to be friends with you.
end of story. i am above all of this petty bullshit that no one i used to be friends with seems to have outgrown.
i am not going to get involved, and you and i are no longer cool.
thats all there is to it.

i am trying to make my room as much it's own space as humanly possible. if anyone wants to come to ikea with me next weekend to shop for some stuff... i'd appreciate the company.

i'm starting to just not care anymore, about a lot of things... which honestly should probably concern me. but it doesn't.
which ironically, is concerning in itself.

SHOES! i can't be bothered to explain all of them but most of them are artist releases (like musicians), a pair of "thrashin" sb highs, the MOB hi edition that i wish didn't have patent leather, and those patent fucking studded supra's that i want just for those times i like to dress up and pretend i'm gene simmons.

so its official

i'm going to winnipeg on the 31st.
it's going to be freezing. but thank god i'll be getting out of here for a few days.


AND.. i got my side tattooed. Matt Ellis is a Genious.

Orig:






















Me:

















bruised.
itchy.
stoked.

xo

domdomdom.

Subject: No Subject
Body: whats cooking young deer ?
give me a shout
see you later animalls

REEEEEEEdiculous. so french.
I miss Dom.

LAST NIGHT (she saaaaid...) i got my back finished. Finally. and almost passed out, which has never happened to me before but i think i was really worked up from running late that i got weird.
but i got one of these out of the whole ordeal so it worked out in the end. Matt is like, this really awesome (heavy handed) Uncle that i never had. or Dad even. i opted for uncle because he already has an adorbs little bundle of his own.
ANYWAY, he's way the hell out at north york centre... but he'll take care of you. so get work done by him.
and I will have pictures soon.
BUT, yesterday i also realized that i get paid THREE TIMES in October. (siiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiick)
so i'm getting my side piece started on the 18th. 2 and a half hours. i MIGHT die, but it'll be worth it.
yeah yeah yeah. i'm a big baby.

thats all i really have to update any of you on.


xo

save the drama for your mama

hey kids.
so i found this new website from euroland that fucking rules and is going to consume a lot of my future paycheques.
FML.

so last weekend... crazy.
friday night was the dbd warriors terror show. kinda lame. lame people. lame ex girlfriends trying to blow anything that spoke. lame crackheads breaking into vans.
the usual non stuck in the city show garbage.

Saturday moms came down and hung out with me and Katherine for a while. i've known Katherine since i was born and she finally came back from out west last week so it ruled seeing her. (don't go back you bitch)..... (much love)
Anyway, after lunch at Danis work Kat went to find a place to live and mom and i tried to venture to the waterfront. after she bought me shoes and i took her to H&M.
needless to say we didn't make it to the waterfront. but it ruled seeing my mom. because my mom rules. (which is obviously why I rule)
from SATURDAY night i slept fucking... something rediculous like 23 hours and woke up monday morning with a headache from hell, so naturally i went to hang out with my good friend vik, see his new place, and watch the season premier of gossip girl with bee and catherine.
seeing that show just makes me love leighton meester more and more every time.

Yesterday i did this crazy TIFF kick off party. it was....crazy. i don't have any other words to describe it. a venue that i thought was substantially large became smaller and smaller within minutes until it eventually took me half an hour to get from the front of the building to the back room where we were keeping everything important.
shit got hectic. and it was a lot of fun.

but i'm super glad it's over.

TUESDAY i'm going to get my back finished. and while i thought i was going to get matt to draw out the script i want on my stomach while i was there... i'm going to do this instead. (with some minor changes...)
seeing as i'm working so many corporate functions in the next few months i really have to hold off on all things visible for a little while until i build up a client base that isn't going to care about my tattoos.
so anyway, i'm making it a side piece.
and the always heavy handed matthew ellis is PROBABLY going to destroy me... so if anyone wants to come see me cry i'd appreciate a distraction when i get this bad boy started.

well, it's 5 after 5. i have to get out of here and see what's up tonight.
i gotta be at the TSX tomorrow morning at 7:30, but does anyone wanna party? DLYF?
hollerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!

xo

Snap back to reality

sometimes it's nice to think that you can help everyone.

and sometimes it's nicer to realize that people have to help themselves.

it's been fun being not me for three weeks. Drinking excessively and talking to/hanging out with people i would never had my life not come to some weird screeching halt. but now that I've got it all out of my system, it's time to get things back on track.

I have been seriously considering leaving Toronto lately. (dun dun dunnnnn...) just for a year or so to go live somewhere I've never been before. how many times have i said this. i know. but i feel like i need to start knowing places outside of Toronto. or even Ontario for that matter. (and anywhere in Quebec doesn't count...)

There's not a lot for me here other than my job and my friends. not that either of those things aren't worth enough to make me stay, I'm just getting restless.

i hate going home and having everyone in my neighbourhood stare at me because I'm a female and i don't have a Portuguese mustache or micro braids.

i hate comming into work and hearing my boss screaming at the people at Bell Canada for the third time in one week.

i hate meeting the same people over and over again who aren't worth my energy and definitely aren't worth my time.

SO i suppose i feel it may be time to take action.

i am currently planning two trips... one to New York City and one to California. if i have to go by myself i will, but i need to stop sitting around so much all the time talking about where i want to go and just fucking go already.

i wish i had more IRL stuff to update you on but i haven't really done anything since friday night. i don't even know if i told anyone what i did on friday night but i probably shouldn't talk about it yet.

i would like to have all of my tattoos done in Copenhagen by this guy.

i'm still looking for someone who does really good traditonal style work in toronto. any suggestions would be greatly appreciated. even...outside of toronto. hook me up.

also, if anyone has any suggestions of some cool places i should visit in the states, i am taking those as well.

Paris stole my best friend. (but i love that shirt...and i guess technically she is in england right now)

but i made a new friend. it seems like even when i don't want them, they always want me.

xo

Movin' up

so we moved our entire office upstairs yesterday.
computers. desks. fax machine. everythinnng.
i didn't realize i knew so much about computer set up. we were done in like half an hour and i saved us about 300$. (end bragging.)
HOWEVER, this is quite possibly the end of me lurking the internet for hours on end at work seeing as my boss now sits directly behind me. thumbs down.

hung out with (insert name here) yesterday. i haven't seen him in such a long time and quite honestly not a lot has changed. and thats not a bad thing. sometimes i like people to stay constant... it's nice to know you can rely on things staying the same sometimes.
telling you all who i'm talking about would bring more drama to my life and his than either of us should have to deal with in an entire lifetime. some people just seriously lack in maturity.

i don't know whats up this week. i don't have a lot of money until next paycheque and i don't know if i feel like hitting DLYF this week. My mom is probably comming down on the weekend, which rules because she hasn't even seen my new house yet and it'll be the first time i've seen her where i don't have to hide any of my tattoos. bonus. BUT, i will probably go shopping with B saturday if my mom comes sunday. so atleast i have one thing to look forward to.

so, everyday i take the TTC atleast twice to get to and from work. which involves a bus, the subway and another bus. I have lived in the city for almost 2 years now and it blows my FUCKING mind how many people who get onto the ttc, do not know how to get off of it. I'm not sure, if everyone is just mildly retarded, or if there really is a disgusting amount of illiterate people walking around... but when there are large font signs stating the proper way to exit a bus or a streetcar, or there are big yellow poles with the word PUSH in giant black letters on them, i don't understand how atleast once a day i see someone yell to the front about how they can't get out the back doors.
i think the TTC and the people who take it are one of my biggest pet peeves on the planet.
along with people who leave miniscule amounts of liquid in milk cartons/juice cartons/pop bottles and leave them in the fridge. I HATE YOU ALL.

So, with that being said... i should probably find something to fill my afternoon with seeing as the boss lady should be back from lunch soon.

just because you've never done it doesn't mean it can't be done...
if you know who sang that i'll be your friend for life.

xo

ohhh nooo

jen and i.
workin that weasel.

so what if i'm a little bit of a terrible human being, thats why most of you love me.
and i more like to consider myself as being determined.


i have a tasting this morning at enwave then i'm heading over to Cervelo Cycles to set up my stupid event. Fruit, and pastries, and coffee are so boring.


i need to start planning million dollar parties. and thats all there is to it.


Made an appointment to finish the beast yesterday. Matt Ellis is such a solid guy you should all really check out his work.


I ALSO, dyed my hair brown again yesterday... pictures to follow. soon. seriously.

in the meantime.... someone PLEASE buy me this BB Dakota dress:

DLYF tomorrow night. come out. i wont be crazy.
vik probably will.


xo