these:

are the best heels ever.

as if i didn't already hate my clumsiness and fat ankles.... i think after seeing these and knowing i would never be able to wear them... i hate my clumsiness and fat ankles tenfold.

fml.

xo

i have a problem.

I really like candy.
like.. yeah. i love candy. sour candy to be more specific, and in large quantities.

you know what else i like in large quantities?





saturday adam and i went to vaughn mills and spent money. remember these?


yeah. me too.
remember when i owned them in my size on clearance AND in black?
YEAH?! ME TOO!

ohmigawwwwwwd!


it's 10:50pm and i dont really know what to do with myself. i have to go try on clothes i bought to see if they're going to help me sell 23 dollar lunches.
or 26 even.
i wonder if i've madean outfit good enough to sell 26 dollar luncheons.

or, maybe i'll just eat sour warheads until my tongue bleeds.
/metal.


xo

oh god oh god oh god oh god.

ogogogogogogogogogog.

OG.

xo.

get learned!

so it's come to my attention recently that the general population of toronto isn't overly interesting to talk to.
So instead... i have spent my time this morning ignoring the phone, and avoiding the baptismal luncheon proposal of death to lurk out material objects that i want to own, to make this yearning for a deeper connection subside... even if only momentarily.

(this may seem like i'm very "woe is me" and unhappy....but i'm actually so stoked on life, you couldn't possibly fathom)

While hanging out at warped tour this year i was lurking the vans tent and came across a pair of adorable watermelon chukkas. I held off on buying them at the time hoping that i would be able to find them somewhere when i returned home, but i couldn't even lurk a PICTURE of them on the intronetz.

but ALAS! my months of regret and sadness are over.

You're allll going to think they're hideous. and i'm totally ok with that. SPRING 2009 WATERMELON CUTIE SHOES HERE I COME.

Now on the topic of shoes... i normally don't wear heels. and not just because i can't walk in them or they are never comfortable no matter what people tell me or what i put in them... but i recently bought a pair of Chinese Laundry winter boots with a little heel on them. WHO CARES. the point is... i've been lurking these weird red wedges for a long time now... not really sure if i could handle wearing them or pull them off...but upon more consideration i think i may invest.

you're probably all going to think those are ugly too but once again, i pay no mind!
I would also like this:

For all those times i wish i were badass enough to pummel a grizzly bear! (or grow a beard)... a constant reminder on the front of my laptop! UN.

and just because everyone loves puppies....

Frankendog, Hot Dog, and Froggy Dog.
Boston terriers, but of course.

xo

oh heyyy blog friends.
it's been a while. the office has been a bit uptight and hectic lately so it's been harder for me to write. Plus, seeing as my life seems to be the largest pile of shit lately i didn't want this to turn into bummerspot.

two things i am looking forward to:
getting tattooed on sunday. KINDA. i'm liking getting tattooed less and less because i think my pain tolerance is going away forever... but this ones important. My grandad probably isn't going to make it to Christmas. so atleast he'll get to see this before he goes.
and fitness with jen on Saturday. FITNESS! the act of getting and being fit. melon pants. melon ass. mash ups. omg.

Winter has always sucked for me. no matter whats going on it's just never a good time. This year it just seems like there's a lot more shitty garbage adding to how crappy my winter is going to be. Crappy living situations, crappy friends, crappy grandad situation.

If you're going to talk to people about me behind my back i am not going to be friends with you.
end of story. i am above all of this petty bullshit that no one i used to be friends with seems to have outgrown.
i am not going to get involved, and you and i are no longer cool.
thats all there is to it.

i am trying to make my room as much it's own space as humanly possible. if anyone wants to come to ikea with me next weekend to shop for some stuff... i'd appreciate the company.

i'm starting to just not care anymore, about a lot of things... which honestly should probably concern me. but it doesn't.
which ironically, is concerning in itself.

SHOES! i can't be bothered to explain all of them but most of them are artist releases (like musicians), a pair of "thrashin" sb highs, the MOB hi edition that i wish didn't have patent leather, and those patent fucking studded supra's that i want just for those times i like to dress up and pretend i'm gene simmons.

where have all the good people gone

fuck your falsehoods.


thank you to the one person who apparently cares about my well being these days.


VANS update -
spent way too much time alone in the office yesterday. I'm super into the Chukka low's right now... anyone who shares my unfortunate chubby ankle situation should be too.
all of these rule:

(for all of you that don't know, neck face is a graffitti artist from california. he's the art director for Baker Skateboards and does work with a lot of different companies providing artwork for all sorts of products.)

chukka lows. super simple, super nice.

if i didn't have fat ankles i would totally rock these. the feathers are so cute. (and all of you know my thing for feathers)

and these are for Vik...

xo

so don't talk, until you take a walk in my...

Herring bone Mt. Edition LX or Era LX (black/catchup).

SO when i started this monstrosity i said i was going to be following the vans market a lot closer. i've been doing a bad job.

and most of you have PROBABLY already seen these... or maybe you haven't.

These are hot. end of story.

because i myself have slowly been trying to turn my wardrobe into something une petite peu plus feminine...

i probably wont hunt these down. BUT IF YOU'RE A BOY YOU SHOULD.

they also come in plain black and white and royal blue and white...

xo