boo-hoo.

i promised myself i wouldn't do this anymore but im not even sad i'm more just annoyed.

and when im annoyed i rant.

i don't know where any of my friends have gone. it's technically the middle of the summer and thus far i have:

been drunk a few times thanks to adam.

gone to NYC thanks to adam

and been to a patio ONCE. with katie. pre-my birthday. i dont even know if that can be considered summer. and i know all the fucking loner hearts out there reading this are just going to say "why don't you just do things by yourself" but lets be real here... are things ever as fun on your own? is going to a patio in the summer on your own fun? not really. is getting drunk and wandering home from whatever bar you were at on your own fun? definitely not.

is it fun being ignored? no.

is it fun being given excuses? no.

is it fun being stood up? no.

as i said i'm not sad about any of this. i don't mind spending time on my own i just wish if people didn't want to fucking hang out with me they'd just say i don't want to hang out with you. i don't even need a reason really... i'd just rather have the honesty than to be made to feel like i'm just second rank all the time to...whatever it is everyone likes to do more than hang out with me.

probably going to patios to get drunk so they can wander home....

just sayin'.

xo