"write something beautiful"

No pressure.

my how the tables have turned.
my mind is officially blown.

xo

Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde

It's always super boggled my mind how someone can be two different people.
It occured to me today that my boss is infact a modern day case of Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde, as she bought all of us extravagant christmas presents and referred to me as sweetie all day.
A Pedicure at the Prince Edward Spa (BALLIN'), a bottle of wine, a crab tree and evelyn travel package, and a bottle of champagne, as well as an early paycheque later made me realize this woman has me totally mind fucked and i have no idea if she hates me or loves me.

My mom informed me that i might be going to L.A. in january for free with my grandma. to see rich "aunty" Gillian Barberie and her model hubby and baby daughter ruby.
L.A.
Free
Rich "Aunty"
a-m-a-z-i-n-g.

I also got referred to as an ingrid bergman audrey hepburn hybrid by a certain adorbs dufferin station MC. i don't really see it but i'll definitely take it. it's definitely better that a "young geena davis", which i've been referred to as on more than one account. gross.

things are definitely looking up.
i was so caught up on old memories i forgot that half the fun of life is making new ones, with people who matter now, as opposed to those who mattered then.

whats up for new years?
xo

Big ups post!

so... after spending for too much time alone in the office today i've decided to make a post to all the things i love, or hate that consequently result in something i love.

big ups to the Via rail and the TTC for making my boss just late enough this morning that i wasn't caught being late.
big ups to my boss for being the craziest woman i have ever met so that any boss i have in the future will be a walk in the park in comparison.
big ups to red hair dye for making me feel good about hacking all of my retarded hair off again.
big ups to matt ellis for always being able to decipher what the HELL i'm talking about.
big ups to jen gillen for being the best robot legged friend anyone could ever ask for.
big ups to katie gale for not throwing away her old winter jacket and helping me fashion it into a new one.
big ups to arthurs fresh company for making those amazing mango plus smoothies that i super enjoy.
big ups to feta cheese for being a perfect addition to any meal i happen to scroung together from the nothingness within my fridge.
big ups to that guy who threw his shoes at george bush for throwing his shoes at george bush.
big ups to who ever came into the office last night to clean all the sparkles off my desk. alllriiiight.
big ups to anyone with a digital SLR camera for making photography the new "it" trend so that people will take their attention away from "hair dressing", neon, and cocaine.
big ups to the city of montreal for inadvertently showing me what the worst time of my life should feel like.
big ups to the city of niagara falls for showing me the opposite. (believe it or not...)
big ups to my mom for being the best mom anyone could ever ask for.
big ups to my brother for that day i showed up at his office swearing infront of everyone about the juice all over my purse.
big ups to the sweet potato for it's insanely low prices on amazing organic foods.
big ups to the asian woman in the variety store across the street for giving me a deal on cigarettes.
big ups to labbat 50.
big ups to my ever growing unreaaaal record collection that brings me more joy than most humans.
big ups to my idiot landlord for breaking so much shit in our lease that i can get off for not giving her enough notice about us moving out.
and last but not least...
big ups to me for getting through all the garbage that just got thrown at me and feeling like a million bucks.
go me.

xo

Bold move

worst idea ever?

having your family on facebook.

My dad asked me to change my "religious views" part of my facebook profile yesterday. jokes.

I don't know if anyone saw it, but it was an obvious haymaker quote. not that that means it describes how i feel about organized religion any less... but regardless, it really wasn't a big deal.

Hi Hon;
Please do me a favour. Change the "religious views" portion of your profile.
You have a lot of family "friends" that you are now hooked up with reading your profile.
You would be better off leaving it blank.
Love
Dad

By family "friends" he means people i don't know or care about. and i don't think you can even look at my profile if you aren't my friend.

anyway, i guess in his absence of my earlier years my dad forgot that i wasn't raised within any sort of religion. and with the growing awareness of how FUCKED UP it all is, and how many problems it causes world wide, i'm somewhat disheartened that he would try and squash, what is in my opionion, one of the more sane views on it all.

i have never been one to push my views on things upon other people. not even just about religion. and i would like to think a lot of thoe choices i make when it comes to my lifestyle are carefully thought out and weighed pertaining to whats best for me as an individual.

Getting this e-mail, makes me even more dissapointed in the human race than i already am, that we still have such a close minded point of view on things that something as fucking lame as part of a facebook profile would cause any sort of judgemental behaviour or negative action.

it's almost fucking 2009 people.
time to wake up.

xo

OH!

+'s
LAN parties.



i can't believe i forgot LAN parties.
xo

dead weight.

"I dipped a cat toy in chicken bouillon and lionel is being the cutest ever!".

someone needs to fix jens leg. soon.

SO i got a noogie from my 60 year old boss on friday.
a noogie.
i almost got fired. for, i'm not really sure what... apparently i just walked in at the worst possible time after sleeping in. but i called. and she was fine so that wasn't the reason.
And then at lunch i got a paycheque, and a noogie, and an "it'll get better."
rediculous.

I have been staying up until ungodly hours of the night/morning with Jen playing this completely awesome Indiana Jones Lego game. i think Annie sending her an X-box was one othe best/worst things to ever happen to our lives. life. hahahaha
My cell phone is still broken. and i don't have money to get a new one yet. Just incase any of you have tried to get a hold of me and couldn't. or thought i was ignoring you.

I'm covered in sparkles from doing all these stupid christmas cards. my desk is covered. my phone is covered. my face is covered.
worst.
I don't hate christmas, but i hate most things christmas related.
Anyway, i feel like this month, and this comming year could be a huge huge turning point in my life. i don't want to jinx anything, but i feel like i'm about to get so good. or maybe life is about to get so good and i'm going to stay shitty....
jaykayjaykay.

+'s
getting my own place
decorating my own place
laptop for christmas...maybe
furniture shopping
tattoos saturday
melly friday

-'s
mizzin' u


xo

well i've got a confession...

ha ha ha ha.

So last night i went out with an old friend to the reservoir lounge.

we actually sat at that exact table and drank wine and listened to this jazz band all night. it was different for me. but good different. with good conversation as always, that comes more naturally than sleep.

i was... fairly intoxicated when i got the text from jenjen on my way home saying she was dans l'hopital. huuuuuuuuuuge bummer. i sad.

i've been working like a dog lately. and my boss is growing increasingly more insane as the days go on. Comming to work every morning is like being a hostage stuck inside a building waiting for a bomb to go off. actually.
no i am not exaggerating.
I spent a solid 4 hours yesterday in the office in silence hearing only the repeated slamming of her wireless mouse.
is it worth it? i don't know. probably not. but until i move, i'm staying i guess.

i'm getting tattooed twice in the next week and a half. i think? i haven't heard from dan since the middle of november so... lets say atleast once.
this isn't interesting.
you aren't at all who i thought you were
you either.
or you actually.
Dissapointed? not really.
Suprised? not in the least.

xo

all hope abandon, ye who enter here

SO woah. yeah. whats up Crisis week.
My grandad passed on friday, i'm sure you all heard. That was the hardest death i've ever had to accept. and thats all i want to say about that right now.
On Friday afternoon i left work to go be with my mom before we even knew any of this was going down and managed to dump an entire bottle of Vitamin water out in my purse all over my phone and ipod.
the ipod Survived. my phone... only kind of survived.

Yesterday i worked the Royal Bank Christmas Party and it actually ruled. I hate serving more than anything on the face of the planet, strictly because i'm totally done with jobs where people don't even see you as being human.
Anyway, i worked as a bar back which meant the only people i had to interact with were my own staff and that made the night awesome.
it still sucked being in a room of 600 suits... but i made a lot of money so i'm over it.
I'm doing the CIBC christmas party next week too, which should be atleast another 7 hours. moneymoneymoneymoneyiceymoneymoney.

does anyone even.... read this anymore? hahaha
i need more boots. and i wish i could wear heels sometimes.
this makes no sense because im on the phone with jen.

c u!
xo