Kyootest.

Bf: did wesley save the princess?


Me: he always does. how come you never save me from oversized rodents in the fire swamp.


Bf: how come you didn't pine for me that time when you thought I was lost at sea and returned as a masked avenger?????


Me: i did pine for you. obviously.


Bf: I NEEEEVERRR KNEEEEEWWWWWWWWW!!!



i've always wanted to be with someone who knows the princess bride as well as i do. haha
Good Morning.
xo

I is for I want you

Dear (your name here)...
It's been a long time, very long time
Since I've heard your voice
And I bet she never thought I was
So sorry so
I've had a hard time, very hard time...seeing less of you
I never thought you knew

So can you see, you're seeing less of me darling
And you're blind to the fact that my
Heart stopped beating

And I'm as good as dead

Dear I forgot your name again...
Just picking up where I left off (Oh yeah)
This is the part where you leave me
So sorry so
I've had a hard time, very hard time...seeing less of you
I never thought you knew

So can you see, you're seeing less of me darling
And you're blind to the fact that my
Heart stopped beating

And I'm as good as dead
This is all I have to say

Maybe I'm naive to think that i can fix everything with art supplies and an unnecessary amount of me being cute.. but I'm going to try anyway.

xo

and i can't quite shake this feeling

like my head is stuck in a guillotine and i'm just waiting for the blade to drop.

i quit i quit... you know the rest

and some fuckers love fucking, more than they like to love.
I'm not saying that one is better than the other...
i think they're equally as fucked.

I'm having a much harder time with this than i convinced myself i was going to have. Yesterday i was just grateful to still have something to hold on to that meant something to me.
Today i'm not so sure if thats what i should be feeling.
There are many reasons why we find ourselves attracted to others. whether it be looks, or common interest, or shared goals, or all three. whatever. But what makes such a strong attraction cause such huge issues between two people that it's almost impossible to recover from. If all you're looking for is that common ground or undeniable connection, then why when you find it does it always cause more harm than good.
and by you i obviously mean me. when i find it. i thought i really found it this time.
It's beyond being funny anymore. or typical, or just plain bad luck. it's beyond all things i have any sort of probable cause for and i am actually just stuck criticizing myself for things that are undeniably a huge part of who i am.
so maybe i'm just meant to be alone.
fly solo, so to speak.
maybe the type of people i'm most interested in just aren't ready for the be all or nothing give all or nothing attitude i have when it comes to caring about people who matter.
or maybe i just am the easiest person in the world to be totally enthralled with for a month before it becomes old news.

i am nothing more than last week's front page headline...

this is so weird for me right now. when i say it was like a slap in the face, thats being modest. but even if it hurts right now there's something that keeps telling me you're worth it.
it's never been an issue of my willingness to try.
it's always been an issue of my willingness to try too much.

When everything goes wrong you see some bad...
Well Im just a soul whose intentions are good
Oh lord, please dont let me be misunderstood

xo.

stars.

most of the time i believe astrology is bullshit. but sometimes it throws generic shit like this at me and it just so happens to pertain to my life so vividly that it's hard to ignore.

Try not to get weighed down by your own emotions today, dear Gemini, but make sure you give them the opportunity to have their time in the spotlight. You may find that there is a strong force working to cover up the truth of what you really feel. Make sure you express yourself openly and honestly. At the same time, you don't want to be so over-dramatic that you blow things out of proportion and add more melodrama to the situation.

I ran into my old best friend yesterday with his current girlfriend who is basically the reason we aren't friends anymore. that was awkward. the conversation ended with him telling me to "get out". (of grimsby). and i think it was meant to be funny but at the same time maybe not.

I lost a really huge job at work today. one i've been working on for like... 3 months. and the woman wasn't overly nice about it considering the time i put into revising her stupid proposal 800 times with the we have no money, we have money, we have no money again bullshit, and the fact that i went on a site visit last monday. not impressed.

all i wanna do i LVL.
and maybe hibernate for like 2 months.
i am like the human definition for caring too much...too fast...too often.
whatever.
you get the idea.

xo

get learned!

so it's come to my attention recently that the general population of toronto isn't overly interesting to talk to.
So instead... i have spent my time this morning ignoring the phone, and avoiding the baptismal luncheon proposal of death to lurk out material objects that i want to own, to make this yearning for a deeper connection subside... even if only momentarily.

(this may seem like i'm very "woe is me" and unhappy....but i'm actually so stoked on life, you couldn't possibly fathom)

While hanging out at warped tour this year i was lurking the vans tent and came across a pair of adorable watermelon chukkas. I held off on buying them at the time hoping that i would be able to find them somewhere when i returned home, but i couldn't even lurk a PICTURE of them on the intronetz.

but ALAS! my months of regret and sadness are over.

You're allll going to think they're hideous. and i'm totally ok with that. SPRING 2009 WATERMELON CUTIE SHOES HERE I COME.

Now on the topic of shoes... i normally don't wear heels. and not just because i can't walk in them or they are never comfortable no matter what people tell me or what i put in them... but i recently bought a pair of Chinese Laundry winter boots with a little heel on them. WHO CARES. the point is... i've been lurking these weird red wedges for a long time now... not really sure if i could handle wearing them or pull them off...but upon more consideration i think i may invest.

you're probably all going to think those are ugly too but once again, i pay no mind!
I would also like this:

For all those times i wish i were badass enough to pummel a grizzly bear! (or grow a beard)... a constant reminder on the front of my laptop! UN.

and just because everyone loves puppies....

Frankendog, Hot Dog, and Froggy Dog.
Boston terriers, but of course.

xo

incase anyone thought otherwise...

i'm alive!
and actually doing quite well.
Amongst the insanity that is life these days ( My alternative lego life, WoW, Coconut Curry, a very high 19 year old alex getting mugged on his way to buy "house bunny") , i have indirectly managed to make my life fucking awesome by nothing other than existing.
Upon one of my most recent trips to the differin mall last night, i found myself with an increasingly irritating need to urinate as i browsed the picked over shoe sections of Winners. I don't know how anyone else feels about public bathrooms, but i hate them.
And i really hate them, when some asshole decides to clog ALL of the toilets with as much paper towel as they can get their grubby little wanna-be thug life hands on.
When one walks into one bathroom stall after another seeing nothing but THIS, over and over and over again, it not only brings out my deep seeded rage for idiotic teenage rebellion, but it arises a few very key questions.
If infact, you do feel the need to lash out on society, put a little inconvenience into a perfect strangers day... why in a public washroom? what happened to you in your formative years that you thought, "i'm going to clog all the toilets at the mall today" was a way at getting even? and at the dufferin mall? where half the people there are so low brow that they will just shit and piss in it anyway and leave it for some poor caretaker to unclog 20 minutes later. seems like a whole lot of work for the inconvenience of one poor middle aged woman trying to make a living cleaning public washrooms.
I guess i just wish people would get a little more creative.

I'M BORED OF YOUR STUNTS. AND OVERSIZED GOLD EARRINGS.


YES. EVEN YOU MEAGAN GOOD, MISS OBLIGATORY HOT BLACK CHICK.

anyway, in searching for my clogged toilet picture... i came across this. i don't know what to say about it, and i don't really know if i should laugh or cry, but i want one. either to cuddle and take baths with or to save from a life of complete and total embarassment.




Good luck little buddy. Try not to wind up clusterfucked! (clusterfuck :
Complete pandemonium, often the result of strokery. Diving on the wrong day with the wrong equipment and the wrong attitude. American. See incident pit. )

i'll leave "incident pit" for another day.
xo