immortal combat.

I'm posting this again because i am so in love with it.

there was areason that i started to write this but i can't think what it was anymore...
I've started to realize that if you walk everywhere like you have a serious purpose you tend to grab people's attention. NOT that i am looking for attention...
without really realizing it i'm just starting to pick up on things that make me feel more confident, i guess thats the point i'm trying to make.
Having stuggled with confidence pretty much my entire life it's weird to start to realize that maybe you aren't less than average just because less than average people treat you as such.
DUH, i know. that probably took me a lot longer to catch on to than it should have but atleast i'm starting to get up to speed.
It's tiring feeling like i need people who don't need me. infact as much as i would like to say i've met people who i thought needed me like i did them... i don't really think ANYONE has.
The more i can come to terms with being by myself, the less i will need other people to make me happy. and the more i can feel confident about me, the more time i can spend in my own presence.

THUS eliminating the need for... a lot of people.

am i talking in circles? i don't really care.

i've spent enough time caring about what other people think of me. i've spent enough time caring about who or who doesn't want to be with me and for what reasons. i've spent enough time dissecting every ounce of who i am to try and fix something that was never really broken in the first place.

I'm fucking awesome.
and I'm fucking gorgeous.
i'm smart, and i'm funny, and i'm generous and caring.
and all of that is only going to multiply once i start seeing it in myself everyday as opposed to once or twice a week.

xo