so what the fuck ever

so i told myself i would make useful posts that people care about. and maybe, someday, i will.

maybe.

but for the time being i'm going to write whatever i want. because thats what i do and thats what im going to continue doing. especially today.

so my search for a new job has slowed somewhat significantly once i realized that no one has called me for a job interview. this is the first time in my entire life i have ever had any problem getting atleast an interview. it's stressful.

and to make matters worse my mind fuck of a boss is being sweet as pie. for almost an entire week so far! it makes me happy to go to work but i feel like im constantly waiting for the other shoe to drop...like there's a catch to everything or that darkness is looming over everything that comes out of my mouth that she may not agree with.

i've been finding myself going through these mini fits of rage lately. like with no cause or anything i just suddenly hate everything for a span of about 2 hours and am the most foul human being ever.

no pleasant. not sure if it's stress or (other) but i wish i knew because believe it or not i don't like being foul.

tonight i have to figure out how i am going to weasel my way to getting osap again so i can go back to school. my mom mentioned something about "throwing myself at the mercy of the government"...but im not sure i like that idea.

speaking of my mom. i love her.

xo